fengfeng=siao siao

2009-05-25T04:10:00.000-07:00

2009-04-19T06:09:00.000-07:00

SCREW CME
SCREW PC
SCREW PE
SCREW READING
SCREW HOMEROOM PERIOD
SCREW WRITING

why can't we just have a whole day of study and not spend time on useless periods!
i hate the stupid you-can't-stay-in-class-during-recess rule.
then where the heck do we do our work?!
SUGGESTION BOX!

2009-04-14T07:48:00.001-07:00

"If you want happiness for an hour -- take a nap.
If you want happiness for a day -- go fishing.
If you want happiness for a month -- get married.
If you want happiness for a year -- inherit a fortune.
If you want happiness for a lifetime -- help someone else"

2009-04-13T07:32:00.000-07:00

Hi? STOP SPAMMING MY TAGBOARD.

2009-04-11T04:14:00.000-07:00

it sucks when I have the mood to study and I can't find a pen in my house.
Then I took 10 minutes to find one and 30 minutes later I lost it.
I guess its not that i want to procrastinate but fate is asking me to.

2009-03-07T01:40:00.000-08:00

After one month of death of this blog I shall revive this blog once . I'm an officially gay now wahahaha ! byebye:O

2009-02-07T01:56:00.000-08:00

thanks for this wonderful day we had :)

2009-02-03T06:28:00.001-08:00

you already did something for me at that time :)
whatever i showed you doesn't mean anything to me now.
whatever meant the most to me now is you :)

2009-02-02T05:56:00.000-08:00

ok maybe . i have to make this clear

I

don't

have

a

usable

Printer

my old one is outside my room where i don't have space to put it and my laser printer is at my dad's office (he doesn't lemme use it cause the ink is sooo expensive)

so ya.

i

can't

help

you

all

print

stuff.

2009-02-01T06:33:00.000-08:00

cute huh? credits to rasuel

2009-01-31T23:42:00.000-08:00

if you trust me,
you'll believe in me.
if i love you,
i'll love every negative thing about you too
if i couldn't tolerate you
why would we be here now?

2009-01-31T10:01:00.001-08:00

i'll promise you happiness
i'll promise you faith
i'll promise you trust
i'll promise you that i'll never get angry at you
i'll promise you laughter
i'll promise you time
i'll promise to never let you down
i'll promise you anything
i'll promise you everything i can.

:)

2009-01-31T07:35:00.000-08:00

i enjoyed every moment with you :)

haha thanks.

_

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DOG TERENCE LEE.

hope you like the bleach watch.

2009-01-30T07:51:00.000-08:00

thank you for everything today :)

2009-01-29T06:33:00.000-08:00

my sister just punched my face

she wants to touch my pupil

i said no.

and she's torturing me

i should have said yes

2009-01-27T06:36:00.001-08:00

Aion - i hear voices in my head, they counsel me they understand, THEY TALK TO ME

WeiFeng says (10:35 PM):
Hi
i am a voice in your head

Aion says (10:35 PM):
shut up for a moment

Aion says (10:36 PM):
my comp got prob

WeiFeng says (10:36 PM):
i can't
because i am a voice in your head~

Aion says (10:36 PM):
then be a bitch

2009-01-27T06:19:00.001-08:00

* Some performance improvements
* You can no longer attack items you do not own if they are in the fountain area
* Fixed some rare memory corruption bugs that could cause random abilities/items to malfunction or result in a fatal error
* Added a new subtle cooldown effect to make it a little clearer when spells are in cooldown and when they finish. This is mainly for long cooldown spells where it is sometimes difficult to tell. More work will be done in this area soon, but it needs a bit more time to make sure that anything extra is not visually intrusive. (PGRu-Unexpect3D)

* Reworked Enigma's Conversion (see details below)
* Fixed a bug with Towers AI not defending heroes properly
* Reduced Ironwood Branch cost from 57 to 53 gold
* Increased Blademail duration from 4 to 5 seconds
* Improved Chaos Knight's cast point
* Added a new experimental mode -er (-ExperimentalRunes, see details below)
* Improved Surge duration from 2/3.5/5/6.5 to 3/4.5/6/7.5 seconds
* Decreased Wrath of Nature manacost from 200/380/610 to 150/175/200
* Improved Antimage's Strength by 2 points
* Increased model size of hexed units a bit
* Increased Curse of the Silent AOE and reduced cooldown slightly
* Decreased Powershot cooldown from 12 to 9 seconds
* Decreased Lightning Storm cooldown from 7 to 6 seconds
* Fixed Acid Spray from affecting Tombstone Zombies
* Spectral Dagger no longer gives vision
* Rebalanced Necrolyte's Heartstopper from 250/500/750/1000 AOE with 1% drain to 700/800/900/1000 AOE with 0.5/0.75/1/1.25% drain
* Increased Fury Swipes buff duration from 3 to 5 seconds
* Fixed an issue with unit selection when respawning with Aegis while controlling other units
* When a player leaves, the state of his inventory is now recorded in the replay for easier parsing (Same 8_# actions)
* Improved Eidolons magic resistance a bit
* Fixed some minor technical issues with Mask of Madness

* Fixed scoreboard player names when a player switches with a leaver
* Switch no longer works when only 1 person agrees in a 1v1 situation
* Fixed Zombies continuing to spawn when the game is over
* Fixed Eidolon Acquire range and reduced collision size a bit
* Fixed -switch with frozen leaver heroes
* Abaddon now uses the Death Knight model instead of the Evil Arthas one (practically the same, but commonly requested)
* You now have vision over the area you cast Blackhole in (260562)
* Fixed Aegis dropping when using -switch
* Ball Lightning now gives a proper error message when casting without the required mana
* Fixed allied hero visibility when using -switch in -ah mode
* When players swap heroes, the new player/heroid data for replay parsers are updated
* Changed the model on Eidolons and adjusted the scales a bit
* Fixed some issues with Blackhole's silence mechanism when applied to magic immune units
* Fixed some bugs when using -switch with Meepo

Demonic Conversion:
=====================
Splits any non-hero unit into three Eidolons, killing the targeted unit.
Eidolon's can duplicate themselves once whenever they attack 6 times.

Lesser Eidolon/Eidolon/Greater Eidolon/Dire Eidolon (Same as before)

Cooldown: 35
Manacost: 170

Notes: It cannot target Level 5+ Neutral Creeps

Experimental Runes
====================
This temporary mode changes the rune system to a more experimental one. I will be changing how -er works from version to version to try out different ideas. I don't plan on any one version of the new runes to replace the current system directly, so do not panic Well Instead, it will be used as something to create discussion, spark ideas, find flaws and playtest different concepts over time.

How -er works for this version: Runes spawn simultaneously on both sides at 3 minute intervals (instead of 2). Again I have no plans to make this permanant.

Notes: I wanted to release this sooner rather than later because of some important code fixes. I am planning on finishing the traditional .x9 quest for v6.59b (along with some more balance tweaks) and then followed by TC in 6.60 if everythings work out right.

Enjoy
-- IceFrog

Update: I'm getting lots of emails asking me what .x9 and TC are. Every 9 version there is a hidden side quest in the map. TC is the Tauren Chieftain hero model.

2009-01-27T05:26:00.000-08:00

tomorrow we are going kenny's house for steamboat

I want my steamboat to have:

Lobster
Abalone
Sharksfin
Crab
Australian Beef
Garupa
Oyster
Mussel
Clams
Coffee
Ice-Cream
Cake
Herbal Chicken
King Prawn
and
Ketchup.

and no Kenny, Ikan Billis is not a substitute for Lobsters.
and if you eat my abalone i'm gonna slap you.

2009-01-25T11:07:00.000-08:00

so sleepy.

must... stay... awake...

must... stay... zzzz....

must.... eat... steamboat.. zzz.

2009-01-24T15:41:00.000-08:00

I wish all of you Chinese People and people who are not Chinese who still celebrate this holiday a Happy Chinese New Year.

May you all get lesser money than me :)

2009-01-23T01:26:00.000-08:00

just came back from eating with my sister, minyee and charlene.
the buffet only starts after 3 so we ordered ala carte.
not bad haha! i love crab
i love udon ( theirs suck)
i love sushi.

the total bill was... $102.50
ouch.
my atm card has a balance of $17
aaaa

2009-01-22T05:17:00.003-08:00

ok i feel retarded sucking strawberries.

why did my dad give me so many of them.

2009-01-22T02:36:00.001-08:00

I've spent my last nights
strung up and pulled tight.
Holding out, sleep and grow.
An answer comes without a please:
'Do what you want.'

Wonder why I'm so caught of guard when we kiss.
Rather live my life in regret then do this.
What happened to the love we both knew?
We both chased.
Hanging on a cigarette you need me,
you burn me you'll burn me.

Hushed with a finger
Don't say you'll never when you might,
or just another time.
This poison comes instruction free.
Do what you want, but I'm drinking.

Please come back, and tell me you love me.

2009-01-20T08:02:00.000-08:00

TODAY WAS A SCARY DAY.
sorry but i can't elaborate much.
just...stay out of this kind of stuff please.
O levels. its our aim for this year. Lets all work hard.

CCA. WAS... FUN.
I STUDIED.
Hidayat and Raymond invented a new game. injunction to the no game.
ITS THE QUESTION GAME!!
ok.. so tired.
'CAMP' TODAY. (its 12am now)
FUN FUN~ FUN

2009-01-19T07:28:00.001-08:00

russel peters.

2009-01-17T17:36:00.000-08:00

When Yip Man was thirteen years old he started learning 'Wing Chun'.

shutup cj

2009-01-17T06:36:00.001-08:00

ahh super tired from going to bugis

Gavin Terence Mike Amos Raymond Kevin Kenny Clement ChongJun went.

i only got a T-shirt.

Ah yes we also invented a new game which was super fun.

Players - as many as possible
Rules -
1) each player asks another player a question or says a statement
2) the other player must answers and other players may add in.
e.g.
Michael : I love botak people.
Terence : You are a Botak Dick
Raymond : You have a botak dick.

3) When saying anything. The following words are not allowed.

- No
- Maybe
- Anything ending with n't
- Not

e.g.

Raymond : Can you sit over there?
Me: NO!
Raymond : HAH YOU ARE OUT!

if anyone says any of the following the player is OUT!

4) Additional Rules

-No other language are allowed
e.g.
Terence : I will beat you all with ' YING CHUN '

-No hand signals
-No body language

5) Revival Round
- Anyone can join back into the game if the rest agrees.
THE MORE THE MERRIER.

2009-01-16T15:21:00.000-08:00

its 7 and i can't sleep.

i hope that today would be a good day.

I FORGOT TO STUDY MY 10 WORDS YESTERDAY!!

2009-01-15T07:49:00.000-08:00

Quit maple.
FINALLY.

on to 'studying'

brb

*takes DS and starts playing*

2009-01-14T05:22:00.000-08:00

Pressure!

Pushing down on me
Pressing down on you no man ask for
Under pressure
That burns a building down
Splits a family in two
Puts people on streets.

2009-01-11T06:44:00.001-08:00

must stop mapling.

O levels.

must stop mapling

O levels coming.

MUST STOP MAPLING

O lev..

Back to maple.

2009-01-06T07:20:00.000-08:00

i'm trying out to be a trader in maple to be distracted from life's stressful things

Day 1 -
Robson and I shared a shop. i earned about 3m+ selling my useless stuff

Day 2 -
Sold Dark Ritual 15m
Sold White Sera 10m
Bought and Sold Red books & steely

Day 3 - (shop lasts 2 days)
Sold Red Books & Steely
End of Day i couldn't manage to sell off 19 steelies and i was panicking
it was 38m not in cash!!
so insteal of 2.3m to 2.2m
the next day it was all sold and converted to 41m ! muahahah (including tax)
all the trouble for 3m

Day 4 -
Steelies sales were ok

Red book was booming
so i bought 28
at the end of the day.
i still have 28
my whole ect space was taken up by Red Books
well in the end i sold them all and earned a total of 3m too!

Day 5- (3rd shop bought)

I HATE ILBIS

i had 100m
i spent on 4 steely each 23m
if i could sell them at 25m each
6m is coming my pocket (counting tax)
however.
my shop placing is terrible!

who wanna buy ilbis? 24.5m ! discounted price

c'mon i know you wanna

once i sell them all i'll have 107 m

i now have 9m.

i'll soon be a meso-billionaire!

2008-12-26T03:55:00.000-08:00

poor guy

2008-12-24T05:45:00.000-08:00

you don't know how those words hurt me.

2008-12-21T16:37:00.001-08:00

I'M GETTING A NEW PHONE!

my dad said yes!
he says he don't mind getting me the iPhone but he says there are better phones out there!

wooohooo.

anyone has any suggestions tell me!

ok. there are many people who has gotten the recent msn virus.
i don't know if this solution works for this virus but it did work for the photo one which last happened

Firstly, download the MSNCleaner.zip and unzip the contents into an accessible folder. (Right click the link and “Save Target As”)

* Reboot into safe mode (Press F8 repeatedly before the Windows boot screen loads and choose “Boot in Safe Mode”)
* In safe mode, go to your folder and run the MsnCleaner.exe
* Click the Analyze button. (This will churn out a list of programs associated with your MSN messenger.)
* If it finds an infection, delete it by clicking the delete button.
* Reboot normally

2008-12-13T19:18:00.000-08:00

Paramore - New Music - More Music Videos

i love her hair.
its so... so... so... red...

I can't find the picture of my favourite cast in the show, Edi Gathegi. he looks good in that hair

2008-12-13T06:24:00.001-08:00

i have alot of wants now

i wanna have fun
i wanna party
i wanna meet new people
i wanna dance
i wanna go wild
i wanna watch twilight again
i wanna be with her
i wanna have another chalet
and we shall have one

2008-12-07T01:58:00.001-08:00

19 guys and 8 girls went for the chalet.
how disappointing

2008-11-29T03:57:00.000-08:00

THE CHALET IS SAVED.

thanks to

Amos ($50 loan)
Chongjun ($50 loan)
Terence (went to book and travelled to take money from YY)
Guang Xiang (same as above)
Raymond (for following me to Simei to take money from Gavin)
Gavin ($50 loan)
Benita ($20 loan)
Yiyong ($80 loan)
Eddy ($50 loan)
Kenny (for coming to help)
PockPhin (coming to pay for chalet)
Claire (for coming )
JingJing (for coming)
Kevin ($60 loan)
WenPin (for coming and going missing)
Lydia (for being so concerned about the chalet)
Jeslyn (for trying to help )
Michael (for helping us book even though he is not suppose to be going but now he is)
Michael's Uncle and Family ( for booking the chalet)

WE BOOKED THE CHALET WOOHOO

2008-11-28T07:51:00.000-08:00

seriously.
this is a 'class' chalet.everyone should be putting the same amount of effort and money into this.this is our 6th chalet. out of all of them this is the worse. its not his fault that he didn't book, it can't be avoided. at least he was willing to fork out extra and help me and mike book. and now someone who is not even going is helping us book the chalet. When i opened the conversation for everyone to give our opinions and views. some immediately left without even saying anything, some gave nonconstructive views and even worse. some couldn't even be bothered reading the chat and just ask, " WHEN IS THE CHALET DATE? ZZZ", at least there was some people tried to make jokes and saying funny stuff to make the chat less tense. and some gave quite constructive views.
after we booked. unfortunately there was a problem. so we have to head down to the office and check.and money wise, some people arranged to pay at the date but now. it is different, now different people is booking and we need the money by the next day. so its impossible to get all those who arranged to pay on the date to pay by tomorrow. so i asked to borrow $200 altogether from a lot of people. i know some of them really tried and ask from their parents but did not manage and i understand some of their situation. but , i saw some of them just saying they don't have money and leave. at least some even offered to pool in a little bit like $5.luckily we managed to get a $200 altogether.
everyone should put equal amount of effort in this. so tomorrow we are going to gather the money. settle the chalet at the office together and see the room together.
well to that someone. if we are not inviting you its not our fault.

2008-11-23T17:12:00.000-08:00

ah. happy birthday gladys
hope you liked your necklace and earrings.
take good care of them.
and stop losing things that i gave you.
enjoy yourself in Malaysia.

holidays are so frustrating.
they fly pass you and you feel so f - ing bored.
i need to do things.
if i were to chiong maple i would think it is a waste of them at the start of the year
if i play too much dota i won't have a sense of accomplishment
if i go and learn the guitar then i won't have enough time on the computer.
if i were to study.. nah that would never happen.
what to do,

TELL ME.

TELL ME

ok no one actually read my blog so.

TELL ME.

2008-11-22T17:27:00.000-08:00

i need more DS games...
i need competition

2008-11-21T04:34:00.000-08:00

Lan and Basketball is fun today!
too bad so little people came

Terence Eddy Kenny PP Raymond GX Daniel Me.

i won all matches at lan. woohooo.

Terence GX and Raymond played bastketball with a few primary school kids who challenged us.
they almost lost..
6-7
wtf?
2 secondary school guys and 1 enormous giant almost lost to 3 short primary school kids.

ok anyway dinner time.
_______________

why do you chase me away.
why do you run from me.
why can't you tell me whats wrong.
am i being too nice again.

or. am i doing meaningless things to you.

2008-11-20T07:54:00.000-08:00

Today was fun.
my pants was too huge
food was great
people were great
everyone was crazy.

we should do this more often

2008-11-19T20:51:00.000-08:00

my sister is extra crazy today.

she keeps torturing me and claim that i tortured her.

good she's leaving

2008-11-18T08:02:00.000-08:00

i can't blog about what happened today cause some ppl are not suppose to know,

-----

i knew this was coming.
you are doing exactly what you did to me.
but i don't care.
but. the fact that you and him still have something on cannot be changed.
this was the exact reason why. i told you i didn't want to talk to you anymore.
because i am just a friend
i know its rude to say this
but.
ask yourself.
after everything i've done for you.
i only ask for one thing.
but have you done anything for me?

2008-11-17T17:05:00.000-08:00

kelmond is the most skilled,knowledgeable, funniest, and most bastard player i know :D
most funny actually.

maybe i'll post one of our funny conversations here too.

i'm getting my ds back today hehe.

ah yes. a picture you all have been waiting for....
my beautiful/crazy/irritating/bitch-who-took-my-ds/funny sisters! going for prom :D
any takers?
i hope she doesn't see this.
__

anyway...i think i have less than 20 readers.
well thats great. so i can personally insult people here
i hate my bffs.
umm ya.
___

back to normal posting.

its 9.30am on a school holiday.
i skipped work cause i was lazy and..
my parents was testing out the net so i have extremely so internet now.
and.
I AM STILL SO DAMN bored.
i went blog hopped.
with an incredibly slow internet.
I think i'll just look throught the forums
..
..
..
"9 year old pregnant, too late to abort."
WTF.
ok,maybe the forums is too disgusting to read. lets do other stuff
ok lets talk to Gavin

Me: I'm bored.
Me: Entertain me.
Gavin: What you want?
Me: I'm Bored
Gavin: So?
Me: Entertain me
Gavin: Don't want.

i have great bffs who always support me in every way. especially when i am bored.

2008-11-16T01:36:00.000-08:00

MY SISTER TOOK MY DS. I'M SO FUCKING BORED.

-----

seeing all those things you said.
you are killing me inside.

2008-11-14T16:33:00.000-08:00

i hate and love you guys.
sorry about the picture size. lazy to change. :P
add this behind the pm thingy too √

2008-11-14T01:36:00.000-08:00

if you are not prepared.
then i will wait.

2008-11-13T07:00:00.000-08:00

Where were you when I needed you most?
Why did you leave me alone?
We gave up before we gave it a chance,
And I don’t understand.

2008-11-12T23:14:00.000-08:00

Power of waypoint

chinese names of dota items are here http://www.dotacn.com.cn/items.htm

2008-11-12T06:28:00.000-08:00

SCHOOL TODAY WAS SHIOK.

During SS we finished Hotel Rwanda
during English we finish Holes. although it was abit boring.

My sister's O level is ending tomorrow. means she can use the computer again :(
whenever she on her lappy my computer's internet will disconnect

Oh theres a new game out!
i'll consider about getting it.
Pokemon is not childish.
its cute and challenging.
Right raymond ? ;)

Raymond," BUY IT, PLAY IT, HAVE SEX WITH IT!"
___

thanks.
but.i got my hopes high for nothing.
can you give me a chance.
to take my pain away.

2008-11-11T05:51:00.000-08:00

tell me whats wrong with me.
whats stopping us from being together again.
can you tell me, the answer i'm looking for after 1 year.
i'm sick of waiting.
i know you will say its my choice and stuff like that.
what can i do.
i'm hurting inside.

I don't feel the way I've ever felt.
I know.
Gonna smile and not get worried.
I try but it shows.

2008-11-09T04:48:00.000-08:00

my parents and i travelled alot today
they gave me $100. but i didn't spend it at all.
i went to a studio and took a photo for IC. just how much was it.

$90 freakin dollars for one small stinkin photo.

oh well. my parents want it.

then we went to some shanghai restaurant. the first time i found vegetables so appetizing.hmm.

i found a cosplay shop.
they sell naruto cosplay shirts.
akatsuki uniform,chunin,jounin uniforms.
and even Akatsuki and Vongola rings!
oh ya. A HOKAGE HAT.

there's a sword shop too.
FROSTMOURNE FOR $1000.

my sister bought clothes.
and went shopping
she has O level Physics tomorrow.
she's so crazy.

--------

i'm so glad we are talking again but.
that means i won't be moving on.
whatever you said was true.
that i was hurting inside.
but why can't i be the one.
whats stopping you?
tell me, and i'll get rid of that for you.
if not. we're right back from where we started.

2008-11-08T06:24:00.000-08:00

through it all.
i made my mistakes
i stumble and fall.
but i mean these words.
i want you to know.
with everything i won't this go.
these words are my heart and soul.

i'm sorry.
you mean so much
and i'd fix all that i've done.
i could start again.

2008-11-08T02:27:00.000-08:00

click to enlarge.

what happens when someone lags in dota.

2008-11-06T07:39:00.000-08:00

Happy birthday to me.

i wanna thanked all those who wished me!

Terence
Robson
Michael
Raymond
Gavin
Eddy
Kenny
Amos (congrats on obama's win)
Cherry
Ying Quan
Kiko
Nabilah
Yi Ting
Clement
Thadsha
Gladys
Leon
Shaun
Jeslyn (thanks for the cake)
Melanie
HuiMin
Danette
Claire
JingJing
Vanessa
TongXian
Guang Xiang
Jessie
whole of 3/5

and my beloved family and crazy sister.

Thanks for the presents :) i'm sorry to remember it and repay it during each of your birthdays .
love the slippers. i'm so going to wear it instead of the broken sandals.
i love the notebook and eye massage thingy. now my eyes won't feel tired
the ring/necklace/nipple piercing thingy from some of the guys was the best. multi-purpose. and they gave me 2 rings ! i can choose 2 of them to be a ring or a necklace or a nipple piercing at the same time.

i made a wish. i hope it'll come true.
and i'm sorry that i ever said that we should stop talking.
its hurting the both of us.
but maybe. it was a mistake to ever did this.
lets both pretend. nothing ever happened.
pretend nothing went wrong.
lets go back to the old days.
were i will be there for you.
for you.
i was wrong all along.
this never would have benefited the both of us.

2008-11-05T06:29:00.000-08:00

Today was fun
Chem. Terence and me kept singing retarded songs.
English. i wasn't really paying attention.
Lit. at least we started on the book.
SS. FREE PERIOD WOOOO.
PoA. well it was fun. and..

SO WHAT IF I FIND HER ATTRACTIVE. i have 0 feelings for her.

ah yes. i finally repaid kevin his money. so now. i'm broke. i hope my grandma comes over and give me red packets tomorrow.

Dinner today was umm weird.
my dad steamed this big big fish.
he asked me to try this part of the fish. and it was so damn hard.
only to find out the fish was not fully cooked.

LEON STOP CALLING ME FOR NO REASON.AND SAY NOTHING.

we found 2 dota glitches today. (its not really new but. we didn't realise it)
how to manta with dk elder form/shapeshift/metamorph
how to have an infinite mana team with OD.

those who know. keep it a secret.

[2 days have passed . and i miss you already. but. we can never be the same again.]
i'm sorry for what i've said.
but i'm suffering even though we are not talking.

2008-11-02T02:48:00.000-08:00

i've read what you said.
there's still so many things i wanna say to you.
i wanna see if this way i'll forget you.
i'll see if this obsession stops or grows.
i'll see if the pain stop or grow.
then maybe we can talk again as friends.
but i'll never forget everything we went through.
i still kept your letter you gave me last year.
maybe i wasn't able to touch your heart.
maybe i couldn't give you what you wanted.
i don't know why i couldn't settle with just being friends.
just don't blame yourself.
i don't really want to move on.
because i don't wanna lose you .
i know i'll regret it someday.
but i don't want to keep thinking that there's hope.
we don't understand how each other feel but,
i know i cannot take it anymore.
and you have to spend your time on him now.
i can't talk to you the same way as long as i know that.
maybe we'll talk again when times have changed.
and i'll regret that i made this decision because i'll never forget you.

2008-11-01T20:17:00.000-07:00

So let me get this straight
Say now you loved me all along
What made you hesitate
to tell me with words what you really feel?
I can see it in your eyes
you mean all of what you say
i remember so along ago, see I felt that same way
Now we both have separate lives and lovers
Insignificantly enough
we both have significant others

2008-11-01T18:01:00.000-07:00

ah. we lost to kelmond's team again!
but this time we won by kills.
we had fun anyway.

6.54b

Sent - 49
Scourge - 64

Scourge Ban - Puck , Visage , BeastMaster , Earthshaker.
Sent Ban - NA, Treant , SF , Lich

Scourge Pick - TH - Venge Lion - Potm Axe
Sent Pick - Omni QoP - CM DK - Warlock

Actually we got an fb followed by amos kill. but their team had a dc so we rm.
however. we managed to score a 5-2 in the following round.

they managed to pull out a repeled cm combo which hurts too much. unluckily we had ran out of purge , i just swapped somebody and mike and beserker called someone else already.

anyway. kelmond was too imba with a DK with repel. screw it.

I HAD THE HIGHEST ASSIST AGAIN! Ok. and highest death.

MICHAEL THANK ME FOR SWAPPING YOU OUT AS A SACRIFICE.

after the match. Amos's pm was this.

(RAYMOND IS THE DANCING KING [Tidehunter with bf] |
MIKE'S THE SPINNING QUEEN [ Axe]|
KEVIN IS THE IMBA GUY [PotM with too many kills.]|
WF IS THE CRAZY NIPPLE [VS swapping to death]|
I AM THE KS-ING BASTARD [ Lion with a Finger finisher])

2008-10-31T23:24:00.000-07:00

no celebration for my bday this year. my dad's bring me to some expensive steakhouse. so.. can't afford to bring you guys out :(

2008-10-31T17:50:00.000-07:00

haven't blog for a long time. too busyyyyyyyyyyyy.

we went to escape yesterday!!

the first time i celebrated halloween.

Terence,Cherry, Gladys, Thadsha,Aaron, Yiyong , Guang Xiang, Eddy, Clement, Eddy, Kenny,Leonard, Jian Xun, Wei Liang, Robson, Leon,Shaun, Constance, Dennis went. Amos came later and Ying Quan came but had to attend to some stuff .

i went on the wild and wet with robson. it wasn't scary but the air pressure made my heart stop twice!!! woo..i shouldn't have sat behind i was all wet after the ride and it was at night.cold~ brr.AMOS SHOULD HAVE CAME EARLIER.
the haunted house was fun too. i didn't know why i kept jumping on yiyong, whenever i get scared i would laugh.some looked kinda real. some looked kinda fake.
after that the rest went on the inverter. i felt a little sick so i didn't go up . and hearing from what eddy and gx said.. maybe i shouldn't go up.

screw it. my phone had no batt at the end.

well we had fun!

i brought a toy cat hair band. when i get the picture from thadsha i'll show it here too.

HAPPY HALLOWEEN.

-

i love you. but what do you want from me now.

2008-10-24T07:09:00.000-07:00

By MARI YAMAGUCHI,Associated Press Writer AP - Friday, October 24

TOKYO - A 43-year-old player in a virtual game world became so angry about her sudden divorce from her online husband that she logged on with his password and killed his digital persona, police said.

The woman, who has been jailed on suspicion of illegally accessing a computer and manipulating electronic data, used his ID and password to log onto the popular interactive game "Maple Story" to carry out the virtual murder in May, a police official in the northern city of Sapporo said Thursday. He spoke on condition of anonymity because of department policy.

"I was suddenly divorced, without a word of warning. That made me so angry," the official quoted her as telling investigators and admitting the allegations.

The woman, a piano teacher, had not plotted any revenge in the real world, the official said.

She has not yet been formally charged. If convicted, she could face up to five years in prison or a fine up to US$5,000.

Players in "Maple Story" create and manipulate digital images called "avatars" that represent themselves, while engaging in relationships, social activities and fighting monsters and other obstacles.

In virtual worlds, players often abandon their inhibitions, engaging in activity online that they would never do in the real world. For instance, sex with strangers is a common activity.

The woman used login information she got from the 33-year-old office worker when their characters were happily married to kill the character. The man complained to police when he discovered that his online avatar was dead.

The woman was arrested Wednesday and taken 620 miles (1,000 kilometers) from her home in southern Miyazaki to be detained in Sapporo, where the man lives, the official said.

The police official said he did not know if she was married in the real world.

Bad online behavior is usually handled within the rules set up by online worlds, which can ban miscreants or take away their virtual possessions.

In recent years, misbehavior in the virtual world has in some cases had consequences in reality.

In August, a woman was charged in the U.S. state of Delaware with plotting the real-life abduction of a boyfriend she met through the virtual reality Web site "Second Life."

In Tokyo, a 16-year-old boy was charged with stealing the ID and password from a fellow player of an online game in order to swindle virtual currency worth US$360,000.

lol.

______

you stole my heart

you flirt.

you hurt.

2008-10-22T06:26:00.000-07:00

we are changing clan name / tag.

SLC.

Skyline Clouds.

well. just kinda random. have to rush the signup for this the upcoming tourny.

we're just going in for experience.

2008-10-18T09:37:00.000-07:00

i find that recent incident rather amusing.
no one wants to talk about it so its hard to dig information out.

_
i'm back to console gaming ( i got my ds back)

oh ya. and i found this rom. its called Shiny Gold ( kinda old) its a remake of gsc pokemon like how fr and lg is a remake of rbg.
lags a little but its kinda fun.
everyone agrees GSC is still the second best with the super long story line.
plus you can play it on the psp if you have the emulator!

___

i had a talk with my mum yesterday to discuss whether i should concentrate on my chinese or not.
i wanna follow my crazy sister's footsteps !
oh well. its not harm trying.
This makes life more interesting .
___

LAN WAS SHIT TODAY.
unlucky team
and fuck you leon for tossing me everytime during pudge war .

_

i can't play tonight.. i guess tomorrow. screw my net . it keeps disconnecting
__

i cut my hair!!!
Gavin asked me to cut the punk hair again. but i have to take an IC photo so no punk this time.
and no, you can't see my chicken-pox scar at the back of my head.
__

someone please buy me the new kirby game. i spent all my money on someone around 1 and a half week ago.

2008-10-14T03:06:00.001-07:00

only looking at the changelog allows you to know what have been abused.

Improved various different areas of the terrain
* Fixed a very old exploit that was recently discovered with Roshan
* Fixed a rare bug that could cause revives to malfunction
* Some performance improvements
* Tweaked Sentinel and Scourge tower bounty sharing mechanism slightly

* Improved Magic Stick a little
* Slightly reduced gold cost on Dust of Appearance
* Decreased Assassinate cooldown from 30/20/10 to 20/15/10 seconds
* Slightly Improved Death Prophet's base movement speed
* Improved Lucifer's cast animation point
* Lowered Admiral Proudmoore's starting Strength
* Slightly reduced slow duration and increased manacost on Torrent
* Tweaked the scaling of Tidebringer's AOE
* Nerfed Untouchable a bit

* RD selection area now becomes unexplored after the pick phase is over
* Terrain and Minimap elements are now visible at the start by default
* Fixed using courier's Drop Item ability to drop Runed Bottle and items in cooldown
* Moved the Tavern locations
* Circles of Power are now usable only when you buy a hero
* Added some new juke spots
* Fixed a few other exploits and bugs
* Fixed a bug with some icons on lower resolutions
* Fixed a small issue with Magic Stick visual effect
* Fixed Lina's model (246662)
* X Marks The Spot no longer recalls the target if he becomes magic immune
* Fixed an issue with Leoric's crown
* Added some new doodads
* Fixed some AI issues with Phase Boots
* Fixed some issues with Tidebringer not going into cooldown against Siege units
* Fixed various parts of the terrain where you could get stuck using the new TP scroll

who would buy items when you haven't got a hero? later click wrong not enough money buy hero .

2008-10-12T06:28:00.001-07:00

i told you. you don't fucking care.
i told you. whatever i do doesn't matter.

2008-10-12T06:19:00.000-07:00

today we went cycling! at pasir ris park.

Jessie Gladys Thadsha Terence & Me

Leon-sama met us later.

i didn't ride a single bike for a long time. but i didn't bang people. i stopped and people banged me. and somehow i kept blocking jessie :D

Gladys and thadsha kept being retarded people and cycle up and down a slope.
Terence roller blade and couldn't come up the slope. :D

TERENCE CUT HIS LEG :O

We then went to mike house to celebrate dunno what.
who cares. there is free food.

2008-10-10T08:53:00.000-07:00

short post. have to shower.

today went out with amos shaun jessie terence michael gladys thadsha to rollerblade/cycle at eastcoast park

wow. going there was alot of trouble. i sprained my leg before even reaching there.

anyway. i'll talk about it later.

you all made me see... that even though so much bad things are happening there are still my friends.that i don't need them. i wanna start anew.
especially gladys and jessie. i hope you liked your candy floss :)

2008-10-09T03:29:00.000-07:00

i'll post later. no time. busy. moodless.

2008-10-04T17:17:00.001-07:00

We have to stay out of LAN.
Damn you Terence.

anyway it was fun.

Leon, Gavin , Amos , Me, Terence , CJ , Kenny , Daniel

3 rounds 2 and a half hours.

there's a paper on monday?
who cares.

2008-10-03T05:09:00.000-07:00

yea.. we went to lan and 2 retards had nth to do and spammed my blog.

Maths Paper 1. boring.
Chinese Paper 2. Too easy. i finished it in 30mins
I need not read the questions nor the passage i knew the answers.
Open Ended? Just copy the passage.

During Maths paper. Shaun signalled me. " Hey. there's stuff under my table. and so does yours"
i looked under and saw. A MATHS TEXTBOOK! WTF !
i can get barred from the paper. lucky Mrs. Ong let us off.
whew.

After school.

Me- Eh. Wan go LAN?

Aaron, Kevin,Raymond ,Eddy,Leo,Ment,Yiyong,Michael,Kenny all went.

We had fun. As usual.

Terence Gavin Cj Robson came later.

Lets go again sometime. i'm bored.

2008-10-02T06:07:00.000-07:00

How's your life?
What's it like there?
Is it all what you want it to be?
Does it hurt when you think about me?
And how broken my heart is

take you away from this empty apartment you stay
and forget where the heart is
someday,if you ever loved me you'd say. its ok.

its ok to be angry and never let go.

2008-10-02T02:41:00.000-07:00

yesterday was the best!

6.40a.m. - Wake Up
7.00 a.m.- Play the computer.
10.30am - Dad wakes up.
10.45am - Dad shouting
10.50am - Dad left.
11.00am - Kevin sms me. Going study?
12.00nn - Discussion in MSN, 2oclock study at WS
1.30pm - Left house
1.40pm - Met Gavin
1.50pm - Eat with Gavin
2.00pm - Clement came.
2.10pm - Clement bought desert
2.20pm - Kenny came
2.30pm - Kenny bought desert.
2.40pm - Finished Eating. Took out book to study
2.43pm - Kevin , Gerald, Raymond came.
2.45pm - Gerald and Kenny took out PSP, i took out phone to use the internet. Gerald Eating Dessert.
2.47pm - Gavin took Kenny's PSP, Clement took Kevin's PSP
2.48pm- Gerald starts to shiver (dessert too cold)
2.50pm - Study.... PSP....
2.51pm - Something interesting happened.

Kenny: "AIYA SIAN LA"
Raymond : "Want to VROOM VROOM?"
Kenny: " Detona? DON'T WANT LA"

2.52pm - Kenny:"LETS GO ARCADE!"

2.55pm - Arcade.
2.59pm - Play the 3 button machine.
3.10pm - Gladys arrived.

Gladys " WTF?! We are suppose to be studying."
Boys" AIYA LATER LA!"

3.12pm - Detona. ( Everyone went reverse and Kenny got banged)
3.15pm - Left Arcade.
3.17pm - Played with sweet machine
3.20pm -

Kenny," AIYA! NO MOOD STUDY LA!"
Raymond " YA."
Kenny," LAN?"
Everyone," ON!"
Gladys," WTF!?"

3.23pm - Walking to Interchange, Met Terence.

Terence,"Where you all going to study?"
Gavin,"Umm.. We going lan."
Terence,"HUH? Serious?"
Gavin.,"Ya!"
Terence,"eh. OK LA!"
Everyone," ON LA"

3.24pm- Amos called.

Gavin (Phone) - Eh? Amos where you?
Amos - On my way.
Gavin - Change destination to Elias.
Amos - NO PROBLEM.

3.26pm - Calling People.

Gavin(Phone)- Eh , Leonard. Wan go out?
Leonard - Go where?
Gavin - We got 9 people + you 10. You think where?
Leonard - But i at tampanies.
Gavin - Take taxi la! We pay.
Leonard - ON LA!

3.30pm- On Bus
3.40pm- Reached Elias
3.50pm- Played LaN
4.00pm - Amos and Leo arrived.

Terence. QoP Blink out left abit life. Warth.
Terence - FUCK YOU!
Amos - YEA!

Terence Qop, blink out left bit life, Warth , left 7 life.

Terence - YESZ!!!!!
Amos - FUCK YOU!

Gerald OM, Multi Cast Gavin / Amos.
Gerald - DON'T PULL MY HAIR!!!! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

Gladys- AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA... BORED.

5.30pm - Finished LaN, Eat at Mac.
6.00pm - Go home.

Thats our day of studying.

"I already knew that if we went out we won't be studying." Clement.
______

I KNOW I FUCKING SCREWED UP
I'M SO SORRY.
FUCK IT. I KNEW I SHOULDN'T HAVE WENT THERE.

2008-09-30T08:13:00.000-07:00

i dunno what are you trying to do behind my back.
i dun understand how does this benefit you.
so can you stop interfering.
if i wanna love her if i wanna kill myself for her its my problem.
so can you all stop telling each other stuff.
you all are driving me mad.
i need helpful suggestions,
not ridiculous actions.
i am not emo for the last time.
i am just sad.
if you were me you'll feel the same.
so can you stop interfering.
if i am wasting my time for her well i dun care.
to me its worth it.
so stop trying to tell me to stop
its none of your business.

2008-09-30T03:10:00.000-07:00

today was a fun day.
SO LITTLE LESSONS.

terence tried to sleep. i poked his eye and nose and put his specs in his ear hole.

gladys was sad.
i tried to cheer her up.
but i think i made her worse.

"IF YOU DON'T SMILE I WILL CUT MYSELF !"
i told her that then she said i wouldn't dare.
oh well :D

____________________

'guys never do what they say, they are always like that'
i'll prove thats not true.

2008-09-29T05:26:00.000-07:00

He's everything you want
He's everything you need
He's everything inside of you
That you wish you could be
He says all the right things
At exactly the right time
But he means nothing to you
And you don't know why

You're only scared to break my heart
I can tell it by the way you run away
Runaway girl

i dreamed of you, saying that you love me, i wish i didn't woke up.

i miss you. i'm sorry if i hurt you.
no matter what you said to me my love for you will still be strong

2008-09-29T02:13:00.001-07:00

it kinda sucks to have a damn hard paper for your best subject.

anyway it was manageable. did the whole paper , and did every question properly, just afraid i did some shitty careless mistakes.

2008-09-28T05:46:00.000-07:00

tomorrow exam paper?
bah i dun have the mood to study

we went to super dog to study again!
gladys thadsha leon amos eddy shanice adonis jessie cherry !

ok we played more than we studied. i learned nth!

Gladys -> playing with phone/ dancing / climbing over sofa/ embarrassing me/ eating /taking pictures/ playing with specs

Thadsha -> Playing with phone / shouting / eating / making a fool out of herself/ retarding/

Leon -> being sad / calling shaun / studied maths at the start / calling somebody (fuck you)/ PSP/ disturbing thadsha / eating

Amos -> PsP / hitting me / Eating / study awhile / disturbing me /

Eddy -> PSP / Eat/ PSP / Go arcade / PSP / disturbing / PSP /

Shanice -> Talk/Learned Trigo / Talk/Sms/Talk/Shopping/Talk/

Jessie -> Really Studied / sms/ shopping / talk

Cherry -> Late / Studied / Scream / Go crazy

Me -> Listen to Music / Talk / Walk Around / Getting disturbed by amos / See the 2 crazy retards go crazy / and of course studied (I lied)

it was fun anyway. gladys is still a total embarassment to me .

I love you all. (I lied) [inside joke]

_

there's nth to be sorry about.
its just my own fault
i wasn't good enough for you.
i couldn't give you what you wanted.
i couldn't change to what you wanted me to be.

i want to see something that's different, something you say would change in me
wanted to see, anything different, everything that would change in me.

2008-09-27T18:25:00.000-07:00

a typical conversation with my sister on a Sunday

Sister takes clothes from drawer
Me: Where are you going?
Sister: I'm going to run away from home
Me: Huh?
Sister: I lieeeeeeeeeed :)
Me: ok. Where you going?
Sister: Fly Kite
Me: Huh? Do you know when is your O level.
Sister: Yes 20 days.
Me: Then why are you going to fly kite?
Sister: Cause its fun
Sister takes $100 from drawer
Me: Why are you bringing so much cash?
Sister: I am going to buy drugs :D
Me: HUH?
Sister: I lieeeeeeeeeeed
Sister goes and takes a book
Dad: Hey you got enough money for fees?
Me: Ok where are you going?
Sister: Tuition :) i lieeeeeeeeed

2008-09-27T08:17:00.000-07:00

why did you do this to me
why did you say yes?
why did you not tell me you didn't like me?
why did you leave me?
why did you cried?
why did you talk to me after that?
why did you say you gave me a chance?
why did you say you wanted to meet me?
why did you give me the letter?
why did you say yes again?
why did you say you were uncomfortable?
why did you lied to me saying you loved me?
why did you ignore me?
why did you hate me?
why did you leave me again?
why did you talked to me again?
why did you pretend it never happened?
why did you bring me to the concert?
why did you write the number behind the letter?
why did you allow me to call you?
why did you talked to me for so long?
why did you tell people you liked me?
why did you apologize?
why did you change?
why did you said you didn't want it?
why did you cried?
why did you say all those stuff?
why did you call me when you needed someone?
why did you said you loved me?
why did you said you wanna be brave?
why did you said you can't get over him?
why did you vent your anger at me?
why did you hate me?
why did you want me to ignore me?
why did you say you wanted a present?
why did you say you would give me a chance?
why did you ask someone to tell me to go away?
why did you become angry with me?
why did you want to end the bonds?
why did you ran the other way?
why... do you make me cry.

2008-09-27T06:48:00.001-07:00

Don't be so scared we will not leave
You are hung like you've been doing for weeks.
Your selfish, and I'm sorry
When I'm gone you'll be going nowhere fast, nowhere fast, nowhere fast.

Would you believe me if I said I didn't need you?
Cause I wouldn't believe you if you said the same to me,
and make dead plans spent the buried hanging on.
Would you believe me if I said I didn't need you?

get out of my life.

2008-09-26T05:14:00.000-07:00

Running through the monsoon
Beyond the world
To the end of time
Where the rain won't hurt
Fighting the storm
Into the blue
And when I lose myself I think of you
Together we'll be running somewhere new
Through the monsoon

in reality i have no one to turn to..

2008-09-25T06:55:00.000-07:00

goodbye to you've been wasting all my time
you're no longer mine
now you've left me i can't seem to get you off my mind
that's when i realized
you had me hypnotized.

2008-09-25T03:53:00.001-07:00

you ruined my whole day.
its my dad's bday and i really have no mood to celebrate it anymore.

2008-09-25T02:09:00.000-07:00

TODAY WAS A.. LESS RETARDED DAY.
i slept during geog test again. stupid eddy take my text. how i revise.
2 geog test in a row. i slept during both
oh and lessons are getting more boring nowadays. i hope everything is over soon.
and we had to clear our desks today,
wow i can't find a box. terence was desperate enough to use the critical writing box!
so i carried a pile a paper back home like some crazy nerd.
ARG.
i was thristy on the way so i sat down at a nearby staircase and bought a canned milo.
so refreshing!

GLADYS AND THADSHA ARE STILL VERY VERY RETARDED.

exams tomorrow? who cares.
__

if i pissed you off i'm sorry.

don't come any closer
don't tell me its over
don't kiss me goodbye.
here we are
am i taking this too hard
don't say its easy
the hardest part is leaving,
don't you wonder why
suddenly... we're all running out of time..

i'll never let you go.
dun ever forget.
tell me you remember.
forever young
i'll never let you fall
its not over yet.
you and me forever.
forever young...
we're forever young..

2008-09-24T04:18:00.000-07:00

who can teach me the guitar?

2008-09-24T01:04:00.000-07:00

This is sorry for the last time
And baby I understand that your making new friends
This is how you get by
The moral this time is
Girls make boys cry

Hate me today,
Hate me tomorrow,
Hate me for all the things i didn't do,
for you.

2008-09-24T01:01:00.000-07:00

I HATE GLADYS!

i didn't want to go for SS remedial!
she kept forcing me to go.
PULL MY BAG AND PULL MY HAND
AND SHE EVEN KICKED MY.. AHEM!
she looked retarded anyway.
that's the fun part.

I LOVE GLADYS.

_____

i sacrificed so much for you and all you do is ask me to go away.

2008-09-23T05:19:00.000-07:00

What am I fighting for,
There must be something more,
For all these words I sing,
Do you feel anything

I can't forgive
Can't forget
Can't give in what went wrong
Cause you said this was right
You fucked up my life

2008-09-22T07:47:00.000-07:00

she's the blade
and i'm just paper.
she's the queen
and i'm just a servant
she's the flower
and i'm just the stem
she's the dream
and i'm just a dreamer
she's the liar
and i'm the believer
she's the one,
and i'm just nothing.

2008-09-22T06:02:00.000-07:00

ah! i started to pay attention alot today!
although my mind drifted off alot . i'm still thinking about it.

some retards today saw 2 bus infront of them and dun wanna go on it.
arg. wasting my time. i hate waiting for buses
they are a complete waste of time.
walking home is more interesting.
________

i wanna dance with you . forever

When I’m home alone I just can’t stop myself.
And you pull my head so close, volume goes with the truth.
Signing off, "I’m all right in bed but I’m better with a pen."
The kid was alright but it went to his head.

2008-09-22T03:20:00.000-07:00

Tomes in dota!

2008-09-20T19:00:00.000-07:00

Exams are just days to let you go home early to play.

2008-09-18T02:01:00.000-07:00

today was shit.

PE was boring.
i sat around with faisal talking about some people he doesn't like. it was fun.
" One person's food is another man's poison"
oh well. we all have our likes and dislikes.
MATHS TEST
DAMN IT.
I THOUGHT I KNEW EVERYTHING.
BUT MY DAMNED BEARINGS FORGOT TO PUT A 0 INFRONT OF 2 DIGIT NUMBERS.

after school was worst.
cherry asked me to follow her to library to print the poa project
and amos brought eddy leo cj yy there.
then this teacher asked us to shift chairs to the corner of the room. that was still ok.
then he called us again. bring 10 tables outside.. wow.. okk..
then. Mr Singh came. that was worst.. he called us together with the detention boys to carry chairs from the hall to upstairs.
we had to wait like 20 mins for him to find chairs.
damn it
it was a total waste of time
i want my good deed award

___
my last shot. for you to give me that last chance
when will you come back?i miss you.

2008-09-17T08:26:00.000-07:00

LEON AND SHAUN ARE THE MOST DISGUSTING PEOPLE I KNOW.

ah... what could be better than not doing 9 maths homework at all and go for a 1hour detention which i could sms and talk on the phone infront of mrs ang.
i'm gonna start paying attention. i can't slack like the last week.exams coming near and i wanna play during the exam week. so i shall balance my work.its not gonna seem possible anyway.
yea. i saved a reasonable amount to buy someone a present ! now to save more.

after the exams i shall start to GROW FAT.i look like sticks sometimes. but i hate being fat. i am afraid of being fat damn it. and i have eating problems
CAN ANYONE HELP ME?
__________

i know you forgotten everything.it all doesn't mean anything to you now.

2008-09-14T07:25:00.000-07:00

some ppl just get to skip school so easily by just telling their parents they wanna skip.

i am having a fever , cough, 4 ulcers ,painless rashes on my back,headache and chances of having hfmd is high.
my parents still ask me to go to school

2008-09-13T23:46:00.000-07:00

why do i keep thinking of it nowadays.
why does it hurt so much whenever it comes to anything related to you
i miss you but i know i'm not suppose to.
i know i'm not suppose to be saying all this.