i dunno what are you trying to do behind my back.
i dun understand how does this benefit you.
so can you stop interfering.
if i wanna love her if i wanna kill myself for her its my problem.
so can you all stop telling each other stuff.
you all are driving me mad.
i need helpful suggestions,
not ridiculous actions.
i am not emo for the last time.
i am just sad.
if you were me you'll feel the same.
so can you stop interfering.
if i am wasting my time for her well i dun care.
to me its worth it.
so stop trying to tell me to stop
its none of your business.

today was a fun day.
SO LITTLE LESSONS.

terence tried to sleep. i poked his eye and nose and put his specs in his ear hole.

gladys was sad.
i tried to cheer her up.
but i think i made her worse.

"IF YOU DON'T SMILE I WILL CUT MYSELF !"
i told her that then she said i wouldn't dare.
oh well :D

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'guys never do what they say, they are always like that'
i'll prove thats not true.

He's everything you want
He's everything you need
He's everything inside of you
That you wish you could be
He says all the right things
At exactly the right time
But he means nothing to you
And you don't know why

You're only scared to break my heart
I can tell it by the way you run away
Runaway girl

i dreamed of you, saying that you love me, i wish i didn't woke up.


i miss you. i'm sorry if i hurt you.
no matter what you said to me my love for you will still be strong

it kinda sucks to have a damn hard paper for your best subject.

anyway it was manageable. did the whole paper , and did every question properly, just afraid i did some shitty careless mistakes.

tomorrow exam paper?
bah i dun have the mood to study

we went to super dog to study again!
gladys thadsha leon amos eddy shanice adonis jessie cherry !

ok we played more than we studied. i learned nth!

Gladys -> playing with phone/ dancing / climbing over sofa/ embarrassing me/ eating /taking pictures/ playing with specs

Thadsha -> Playing with phone / shouting / eating / making a fool out of herself/ retarding/

Leon -> being sad / calling shaun / studied maths at the start / calling somebody (fuck you)/ PSP/ disturbing thadsha / eating

Amos -> PsP / hitting me / Eating / study awhile / disturbing me /

Eddy -> PSP / Eat/ PSP / Go arcade / PSP / disturbing / PSP /

Shanice -> Talk/Learned Trigo / Talk/Sms/Talk/Shopping/Talk/

Jessie -> Really Studied / sms/ shopping / talk

Cherry -> Late / Studied / Scream / Go crazy

Me -> Listen to Music / Talk / Walk Around / Getting disturbed by amos / See the 2 crazy retards go crazy / and of course studied (I lied)


it was fun anyway. gladys is still a total embarassment to me .

I love you all. (I lied) [inside joke]

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there's nth to be sorry about.
its just my own fault
i wasn't good enough for you.
i couldn't give you what you wanted.
i couldn't change to what you wanted me to be.


i want to see something that's different, something you say would change in me
wanted to see, anything different, everything that would change in me.

a typical conversation with my sister on a Sunday

Sister takes clothes from drawer
Me: Where are you going?
Sister: I'm going to run away from home
Me: Huh?
Sister: I lieeeeeeeeeed :)
Me: ok. Where you going?
Sister: Fly Kite
Me: Huh? Do you know when is your O level.
Sister: Yes 20 days.
Me: Then why are you going to fly kite?
Sister: Cause its fun
Sister takes $100 from drawer
Me: Why are you bringing so much cash?
Sister: I am going to buy drugs :D
Me: HUH?
Sister: I lieeeeeeeeeeed
Sister goes and takes a book
Dad: Hey you got enough money for fees?
Me: Ok where are you going?
Sister: Tuition :) i lieeeeeeeeed

why did you do this to me
why did you say yes?
why did you not tell me you didn't like me?
why did you leave me?
why did you cried?
why did you talk to me after that?
why did you say you gave me a chance?
why did you say you wanted to meet me?
why did you give me the letter?
why did you say yes again?
why did you say you were uncomfortable?
why did you lied to me saying you loved me?
why did you ignore me?
why did you hate me?
why did you leave me again?
why did you talked to me again?
why did you pretend it never happened?
why did you bring me to the concert?
why did you write the number behind the letter?
why did you allow me to call you?
why did you talked to me for so long?
why did you tell people you liked me?
why did you apologize?
why did you change?
why did you said you didn't want it?
why did you cried?
why did you say all those stuff?
why did you call me when you needed someone?
why did you said you loved me?
why did you said you wanna be brave?
why did you said you can't get over him?
why did you vent your anger at me?
why did you hate me?
why did you want me to ignore me?
why did you say you wanted a present?
why did you say you would give me a chance?
why did you ask someone to tell me to go away?
why did you become angry with me?
why did you want to end the bonds?
why did you ran the other way?
why... do you make me cry.

Don't be so scared we will not leave
You are hung like you've been doing for weeks.
Your selfish, and I'm sorry
When I'm gone you'll be going nowhere fast, nowhere fast, nowhere fast.

Would you believe me if I said I didn't need you?
Cause I wouldn't believe you if you said the same to me,
and make dead plans spent the buried hanging on.
Would you believe me if I said I didn't need you?


get out of my life.

Running through the monsoon
Beyond the world
To the end of time
Where the rain won't hurt
Fighting the storm
Into the blue
And when I lose myself I think of you
Together we'll be running somewhere new
Through the monsoon

in reality i have no one to turn to..

goodbye to you've been wasting all my time
you're no longer mine
now you've left me i can't seem to get you off my mind
that's when i realized
you had me hypnotized.

you ruined my whole day.
its my dad's bday and i really have no mood to celebrate it anymore.

TODAY WAS A.. LESS RETARDED DAY.
i slept during geog test again. stupid eddy take my text. how i revise.
2 geog test in a row. i slept during both
oh and lessons are getting more boring nowadays. i hope everything is over soon.
and we had to clear our desks today,
wow i can't find a box. terence was desperate enough to use the critical writing box!
so i carried a pile a paper back home like some crazy nerd.
ARG.
i was thristy on the way so i sat down at a nearby staircase and bought a canned milo.
so refreshing!


GLADYS AND THADSHA ARE STILL VERY VERY RETARDED.

exams tomorrow? who cares.
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if i pissed you off i'm sorry.

don't come any closer
don't tell me its over
don't kiss me goodbye.
here we are
am i taking this too hard
don't say its easy
the hardest part is leaving,
don't you wonder why
suddenly... we're all running out of time..

i'll never let you go.
dun ever forget.
tell me you remember.
forever young
i'll never let you fall
its not over yet.
you and me forever.
forever young...
we're forever young..

who can teach me the guitar?

This is sorry for the last time
And baby I understand that your making new friends
This is how you get by
The moral this time is
Girls make boys cry

Hate me today,
Hate me tomorrow,
Hate me for all the things i didn't do,
for you.

I HATE GLADYS!

i didn't want to go for SS remedial!
she kept forcing me to go.
PULL MY BAG AND PULL MY HAND
AND SHE EVEN KICKED MY.. AHEM!
she looked retarded anyway.
that's the fun part.

I LOVE GLADYS.

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i sacrificed so much for you and all you do is ask me to go away.

What am I fighting for,
There must be something more,
For all these words I sing,
Do you feel anything


I can't forgive
Can't forget
Can't give in what went wrong
Cause you said this was right
You fucked up my life

she's the blade
and i'm just paper.
she's the queen
and i'm just a servant
she's the flower
and i'm just the stem
she's the dream
and i'm just a dreamer
she's the liar
and i'm the believer
she's the one,
and i'm just nothing.

ah! i started to pay attention alot today!
although my mind drifted off alot . i'm still thinking about it.

some retards today saw 2 bus infront of them and dun wanna go on it.
arg. wasting my time. i hate waiting for buses
they are a complete waste of time.
walking home is more interesting.
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i wanna dance with you . forever

When I’m home alone I just can’t stop myself.
And you pull my head so close, volume goes with the truth.
Signing off, "I’m all right in bed but I’m better with a pen."
The kid was alright but it went to his head.

Tomes in dota!

Exams are just days to let you go home early to play.

today was shit.

PE was boring.
i sat around with faisal talking about some people he doesn't like. it was fun.
" One person's food is another man's poison"
oh well. we all have our likes and dislikes.
MATHS TEST
DAMN IT.
I THOUGHT I KNEW EVERYTHING.
BUT MY DAMNED BEARINGS FORGOT TO PUT A 0 INFRONT OF 2 DIGIT NUMBERS.

after school was worst.
cherry asked me to follow her to library to print the poa project
and amos brought eddy leo cj yy there.
then this teacher asked us to shift chairs to the corner of the room. that was still ok.
then he called us again. bring 10 tables outside.. wow.. okk..
then. Mr Singh came. that was worst.. he called us together with the detention boys to carry chairs from the hall to upstairs.
we had to wait like 20 mins for him to find chairs.
damn it
it was a total waste of time
i want my good deed award

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my last shot. for you to give me that last chance
when will you come back?i miss you.

LEON AND SHAUN ARE THE MOST DISGUSTING PEOPLE I KNOW.

ah... what could be better than not doing 9 maths homework at all and go for a 1hour detention which i could sms and talk on the phone infront of mrs ang.
i'm gonna start paying attention. i can't slack like the last week.exams coming near and i wanna play during the exam week. so i shall balance my work.its not gonna seem possible anyway.
yea. i saved a reasonable amount to buy someone a present ! now to save more.

after the exams i shall start to GROW FAT.i look like sticks sometimes. but i hate being fat. i am afraid of being fat damn it. and i have eating problems
CAN ANYONE HELP ME?
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i know you forgotten everything.it all doesn't mean anything to you now.

some ppl just get to skip school so easily by just telling their parents they wanna skip.

i am having a fever , cough, 4 ulcers ,painless rashes on my back,headache and chances of having hfmd is high.
my parents still ask me to go to school

why do i keep thinking of it nowadays.
why does it hurt so much whenever it comes to anything related to you
i miss you but i know i'm not suppose to.
i know i'm not suppose to be saying all this.

ok for those ppl who are wondering why i was walking to the toilet so many times is cause i drank my bottle 6 times as i had a sore throat.
it still hurts damn it
i'm sick.
i have a headache but no fever arg

now you're gone,
i wonder why,
you left me here,
i think about it on and on and on and on again
i know you're never coming back,
i hope that you can hear me,
i'm waiting to hear from you
until i do
you're gone away
i'm left alone
a part of me is gone
and i'm not moving on
so wait for me
i know the day will come
i'll meet you there
no matter where life takes me to
i'll meet you there
and even if i meet you here.
i'll meet you there.

i wish i could have told you
the things i kept inside
now i guess its just too late
so many things remind me of you
i hope that you can hear me
i miss you
this is goodbye
one last time
you're gone away
i'm left alone
a part of me is gone
and i'm not moving on
i know the day will come
i'll meet you there
no matter where life takes me to
i'll meet you there
and even if i meet you here
i'll meet you there
no matter where life takes me to
i'll meet you there
and even if i meet you here
i'll meet you there

i'll meet you there...

and where i go you'll be there with me
forever you'll be right here with me
i'll meet you there no matter where life takes me to.




i'm sorry.
that day...i was confused that day cause of the way you spoke to me
its just i dunno what to do now.
its not your fault, never your fault.
somehow this kinda reminded me.about the past.
i would post on my blog and you would post about it.
i know i'm boring and stuff its cause...
i'm afraid i might offend you or you might find me weird or smth.
its just...i dunno...
everything is going wrong now.
i wanted to show you a letter. but i told someone to get rid of it.
because i thought. that everything that i do now.. is meaningless.
nothing can change the fact that i am me. and he is he and you are you
i read everything you said over and over again maybe to see a hope.
everytime i read it i feel the pain i felt at that time again and again.
i don't know what you want.but i tried to find out.
i'm not open. but i'm learning from others.
its because... i've never been so close to someone before..



i miss you. but does it matter to you?
i promised you,but does it matter to you?

i just thought about it the whole night...
maybe... there was too much false hope.
and as everything goes through, i saw my past self.
greed,lust,selfishness.
there's nothing special about me.
i've never changed.
so haven't you.
that night,
i lost whats most important to me.
i lost my happiness
i lost my emotions
i lost my pride
i don't want to hate you at all.
because i brought this upon myself.
i dug my own grave.
thanks.for the happiness and sadness you brought me.
thanks for everything that was worthed it and everything that was a waste of time.

i try to be cheerful in school, i smile and laugh. but when i'm thinking. it haunts me.
its like something scaring me everyday.
i feel so empty now.
that night,
i lost the person i trusted the most.and realised i betrayed the trust of someone else.
that night..
it wasn't you at all. come back and talk to me when the real you comes back.
thank you.
and everyone else who helped me.
and.
will you ever forgive me.

please.
dun ever ask me to stop.

one of the best solo i've ever seen.

went out with terence claire cherry amos clement to do homework!
lol ok we did none.
we met thadsha along the way!

OH and this guy he went to us and asked us to work for him $20 per hour lol.
he ask us to test our flyer giving out skills.
but we predicted it wasa scam so we said yes and ran ! haha
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do you even care how i feel?
just watch and see. watch..i'll show you.
how much all these means to me.
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this is the worst saturday night ever

omg i went back to simei jj to meet up with my old friends!

lots of them were there!

XP,Ah long,Bryan,Joel,Des,Peter,Zhen Kai,Ben,Louhan,XiangJie,Alex,Bingjun and many many more!!!

oh well i got trashed by louhan and Xiangjie. whats this! i 5 months never play liao!
glad that everyone is fine!

gotta think of some decklist fast. RAYMOND WHERE ARE MY CARDS DAMN IT.

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EXAMS ARE COMING.
I HAVEN'T DO ANYTHING MUCH YET.
I AM SO DEAD IN MATHS,GEOG,SS!
TEACH ME SOMEONE . TEACH ME DAMN IT.
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there's homework?whats that? never heard of it.
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best song ever rawr.

i'm playing guitar hero 2 !! but damn it lags sometimes.
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we went to jacks place at 2.30 today!
omg their steaks are nice but their chicken is shit. it taste like normal chicken chop.
anyway. thadsha and gladys had free ice cream for desert and they went to mix it with sprite to make it a float and they didn't finish it. omg so disgusting arg. embarass us infront of everyone.
Jeslyn was kind enough to pay the tax for us hehe :)
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AH!Not only the olympics have made singapore proud! Zenith won the ESWC!
Amazing replay! go dl it asap.
Get the replay from me or amos now.

and we were discussing the amazing ward places KS and Zenith have put lets take a look.

ITS THEIR OWN BASE. the tower has not downed yet. its up to you to find out what it is for.its their own nc. maybe they like the statue.ah.. to counter obs

ITEMS ON THE GROUND.

final score !

the art of abusing the system ( to kevin and kenny)



Grand Finals :
Rockman vs RedFox