i just thought about it the whole night...
maybe... there was too much false hope.
and as everything goes through, i saw my past self.
greed,lust,selfishness.
there's nothing special about me.
i've never changed.
so haven't you.
that night,
i lost whats most important to me.
i lost my happiness
i lost my emotions
i lost my pride
i don't want to hate you at all.
because i brought this upon myself.
i dug my own grave.
thanks.for the happiness and sadness you brought me.
thanks for everything that was worthed it and everything that was a waste of time.

i try to be cheerful in school, i smile and laugh. but when i'm thinking. it haunts me.
its like something scaring me everyday.
i feel so empty now.
that night,
i lost the person i trusted the most.and realised i betrayed the trust of someone else.
that night..
it wasn't you at all. come back and talk to me when the real you comes back.
thank you.
and everyone else who helped me.
and.
will you ever forgive me.